He would be beside me,
We'd do everything together.
Laugh through the good times,
cry through the bad.
We'd be there to comfort each other,
take care of each other when we were sick,
or relax together after a long day.
Walk pass snow-covered trees in the winter,
or down the beach during sunset in the summer.
I'd wait for him to come home with dinner on the table.
In bed, we'd read together before cuddling.
And on Sundays we'd go to church together,
our child in my arms, and us in his.
Generation after generation, we'd still be together.
Ever since I met you I thought I had found him.
Him, the one who fit my dream.
And as I got to know you,
you replaced him.
I saw you, whose hand I was holding.
I saw you, whose face I held and kissed.
I saw you, who embraced me.
But as I got to know you,
I found out it was her (or her) whom you dreamed of,
Not me, it was never me.
My friends said give up, that I could do better.
But to me, there was no "better",
You were on a pedestal,
You were perfect,
There was no other.
Thoughts of you occupied my mind everyday,
every moment of every day.
But you never once thought of me.
Nevertheless, I waited.
Cried when you ignored me,
Angry when you forgot me.
But I forgave you.
Noble, I thought.
Giving you time to realize what I meant to you.
But now I see the distance between us.
What I thought existed,
I realize now that it was just an illusion.
So now I'm waiting, but not for you.
No longer will I let my thoughts be consumed by you.
You no longer occupy his place in my dreams.
I don't know who he is,
but I'm still waiting for him.
My heart may be broken,
but I know he will fix it.
I haven't given up.
To give up would be abandoning a part of myself.
So I will hold onto this dream - and wait.
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