Friday

- Last Day of Classes

- Chinese Final: Speaking

- Biology Big Ideas Essay #2 Due

- Biology Extra Credit Due
- Biology Final Group Project
- English Paper 5, Paper Revision, and Final Portfolio "Due"

- Brecon Prom

- GCC 2013 Hangout

Saturday

- Grand Haverfest?

- GCC Mainline Senior Appreciation Dinner

Sunday

- Grand May Day!

Finals Week(s)

- Chinese Final: Writing

- Biology Final

- Human Cognition Final

- [Tuesday] ASA Senior Banquet

- [Friday] GCC Mainline - Korean BBQ

Miscellaneous

- Pack

- Laundry

- Wash dishes

2 classes, 6 papers, 1 project, and 5 finals until SUMMER 2010!

Going to live in Canaday Library tonight. (I love 24-hour library hours.) Heading back to Brecon later to grab snacks, my water boiler (in case I want tea or ramen), and my toothbrush.

This is why procrastination is bad.

edit//3:15AM//now I know why I bought a large bag of shrimp crackers =)

A Call for Gospel-centered Repentance

A call for Gospel-centered Repentance from Solus Christus on Vimeo.

Please distribute widely. The Gospel needs to be heard.

Fellowship in Christ Stanford (FICS) submission for the KCPC SF Film Festival

This is a compilation of sermons given by Paul Washer, John Piper, Tim Keller and Mark Driscoll, which can be found online. For further listening, here are the sermons used in order:

Paul Washer - Shocking Youth Message
John Piper - How Much Does God Love This Church?
Tim Keller - The Wedding Feast of the Lamb
Tim Keller - Converted by the Spirit
Mark Driscoll - Conference Message from Advance 2009
Paul Washer - The Greatest Words in All of Scripture
John Piper - The Gospel in 6 minutes

Audio is not owned by me.

"Unless you have a passion worth dying for, you have nothing worth living for." -Jaeson Ma

Colossians 3

Rules for Holy Living

¹Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. ²Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. ³For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. ⁴When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

⁵Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. ⁶Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.⁷You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. ⁸But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. ⁹Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices ¹⁰and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. ¹¹Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

¹²Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. ¹³Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. ¹⁴And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

¹⁵Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. ¹⁶Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. ¹⁷And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

[...] That's when I wake up and reality hits me. The one I'm dreaming about isn't you.

Grand May Day this Year

Late Night Conversations

(12:52:46 AM):	anyway, how have you liked your first year of college?
(12:52:53 AM):	do you feel like you've grown, learned much?
peony (12:53:18 AM):	uh...not very much
(12:53:36 AM):	grown and learned in terms of seeing how much i need to do so

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(12:56:43 AM):	what are three things you learned this year
(12:57:00 AM):	about yourself, about God, about your faith, or about people?
(12:57:25 AM):	the depth of sin in myself and in others
(12:58:15 AM):	doing the right thing is usually the hardest as well
(12:59:15 AM):	concerning faith, it's easy to get caught up in other things, so never never forget the basics, and hang onto those memories of when you first fell in love with Christ
(1:06:03 AM):	mm
(1:06:36 AM):	in what ways have you encountered the depths of your sin and those of others?
(1:09:16 AM):	selfishness, lack of compassion, lack of action, hypocrites

Done is Good

Monday

Tuesday

- 1040 Movie Screening with Jaeson Ma (@UPenn)

Wednesday

- Biology Lab - Quiz and Lab Report Due

- Lifeguarding Water Skills Test

Thursday

- Chinese Final: Listening

- Human Cognition Final Presentation

- Lifeguarding Written Test

Friday

- Last Day of Classes

- Chinese Final: Speaking

- English Paper 5 and Final Portfolio Due

- Biology Big Ideas Essay #2 Due

- Biology Extra Credit Due

- Brecon Prom

- GCC 2013 Hangout & Sisters' Sleepover

Saturday

- Grand Haverfest

- GCC Mainline Senior Appreciation Dinner

Sunday

- Grand May Day!

Finals Week

- Chinese Final: Writing

- Biology Final

- Human Cognition Final

- [Tuesday] ASA Senior Banquet

- [Friday] GCC Mainline - Korean BBQ

Miscellaneous

- Pack

- Laundry

- Wash dishes

[Saturday, May 8th]-> Go Home; Summer 2010 Begins!

Goal: To be back home for my mom's birthday (which is also Mother's Day, so I may not be at BMC for the second week of finals)

Update: Maybe I won't go home until the 15th...my mom says she doesn't want me to rush through finals for her birthday/mother's day (that we can celebrate later), and that I should make the most of what they pay for in terms of room/board and my meal plan.

Summer Plans/Goals

- VBS: Part-time Admin.

- Hospital volunteer?

- Lifeguarding?

- ISAAC? Help out at church?

- Finish reading the Bible from cover to cover (special emphasis on the OT)

- Study: Chinese, Chemistry, Physics

- Boon Church Retreat 2010 (7/2-5)

- AMI Conference 2010? (7/23-28)

- Aruba (7/31-8/7)

- Miscellaneous: catch up on my reading list, journal more, exercise, and continue developing sewing/clothing design skills

Concerning Love and Relationships...

Science is only starting to catch onto what the Bible has been teaching for decades:

Commitment is the ability to sustain an investment, to honor values over momentary feelings. The irony, of course, is that while we want happiness, it isn't a moment-by-moment experience; the deepest, most enduring form of happiness is the result of sustained emotional investments in other people.

Marriage is about getting over yourself. Happiness is not about focusing on yourself. Happiness is about holding onto your values, deciding who you are and being that person, using your particular talent, and investing in others.

You can't find the perfect person; there is no such thing.

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Reference(s): Marano, Hara E. "The Expectations Trap." Psychology Today Mar.-Apr. 2010: 62-71. Print.

"Every Breath" by Boyce Avenue

NYT's Nicholas Kristof as Keynote Speaker for BMC's 125th Anniversary

http://www.biconews.com/?p=24385

Symphony Church

The church GCC plans to plant in Boston this summer finally has a name: Symphony Church!

For more information, check out the website http://www.symphonychurch.com/ or feel free to contact me.

Just finished compiling my academic schedule for next year. It's either going to be the best thing ever or the worst thing ever. In short, I packed most of my classes and labs into M,W,F so I only have Chinese drill class on T, Th. Yeah...so it'll be 9-4 with no breaks on M,W,F but whatever...I did that in high school anyways, right? And this way I get T, Th off, well almost. Chinese drill isn't going to be much anyways. No matter what one thing I definitely need to work on for next year is being more disciplined (in terms of time management, studying, doing work, etc.). Hopefully, I'll start on that this summer....

In other news, the Hillsong United concert was pretty awesome tonight. Apparently this year was their first time in Philly...? I know I shouldn't be depending on events like these to get back up spiritually, but tonight was definitely encouraging.

Desert Song, Hillsong United...a song that's helped me more than once. Yes, many may say that a lot of Hillsong's music is not very theologically deep, but sometimes all we need is to be reminded of the most basic, fundamental truths.

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Days Until Hillsong Concert: 3

Days of Class Left: 15

Yeah...freshman year is almost over. 15 days of class is not a lot but summer seems so far away. And there's still finals.... My mom asked me today when I was heading back to NYC. I'm still not sure. I guess the simple answer is when I finish finals but I don't know when that is. I might just choose to drag it out until the very last day so I have more time to study and relax. And there's some stuff I want to do in Philly before I head back to NYC. (Dim Sum in Philly's Chinatown, Go to King of Prussia, Sushi buffet at Minado, and maybe visit Longwood Gardens.)

Concerning this summer I have so many ideas but no concrete plans =(

Well I guess with the exception of a week in Aruba! =)

Also, in term of long-term plans, I've been talking to some young adults and seniors lately and now I'm even more torn about accelerated graduation.

What is one Bible passage that changed your life or that made you go, WOW?

Hmm...well I guess the passage that comes to mind would be the passage I was reading at the time right before I decided to accept Christ. While reading John 14, the barriers around my heart began to collapse and I accepted that Jesus was God. And not only that, but also that He was my Heavenly Father who truly loved me. That this life was short, and one day everything would be perfect and we would be back with Him. After that moment there's been many Bible passages that have changed my life. For seeing isn't believing, but believing is seeing.

Ask me anything

having class outside! =)

single minded, whole hearted...

Wow, I think I just talked to the nicest 800-number support person. Now I feel so bad for running low on patience in the beginning of the phone call. So the story begins with me dropping my book bag this morning with my laptop in it. And ever since then my laptop's been randomly shutting off on me. Sometimes when I took out the battery and turned it on again it would actually do so. Other times I wasn't so lucky. Anyways, so I finally called HP tech support to see if my warranty expired in case I have to send it in. From the moment the person answered the phone I guessed that she wasn't American. She had this accent in her voice. But slowly as she stayed patient with me and helped me with my laptop I thought... What the hell is wrong with me?! She's only trying to help me and do her job. And here I am taking out my frustration on her. Who cares if she's not American. Yes I know...Americans are losing jobs due to outsourcing but she also needs to earn money to help her family. It's not like she doesn't know English or knows nothing about computers. She went to school too. She worked hard for this job. And she knows more about computers than I'll ever will. And shame on me, I have so many friends who are international students. While we were waiting for my computer to reboot we also had a short conversation about our lives. Yeah...a bit weird and unexpected for a tech support call but I liked it. She's in the Philippines and has a family, including a one-year old daughter. Before hanging up we wished each other best of luck and she told me to study hard, etc. Certainly not the phone call I expected when I called....

By the way, it's not my intention to praise HP support because the last time I called definitely was not a good experience. And I still don't know if my laptop is fixed but I'm typing on it now and it hasn't shut off on me yet.... We'll see, my warranty lasts another 13 days.

This experience just makes me wonder about how much we take it out on other people when things aren't going right for us, even on total strangers. I guess what I'm trying to say is that this experience made me reflect upon how so much of my anger is the result of my selfish desires, circumstances when I don't get my way. I need to stop being so conceited; stop being so unwilling to inconvenience myself, as if that was the worst thing that could ever happen. I need to grow up.... I'm pissing myself off.

Also, this is kind of off-topic but when the comedian Paul Kim came to Haverford, one thing he said was to be nice to telemarketers. Because as much as you don't want them to call you, they also wish they weren't calling you either. Think about the person on the other side.

Just food for thought.

I feel like I have seasonal affective disorder. Maybe I belong on the west coast. I'm so much more productive, etc. when it's sunny and warm.

Keep fighting.

Because it's so easy to just be idle and listen to the demons in your life...then the sin will slowly consume you.

Prayer Requests:

- For strength, motivation, wisdom, guidance, patience

- To realize the power of Grace

- Confidence in Christ and security in His Love

- To lean on Him and trust in Him

Currently Listening To:
- All of Me, Tim Be Told
- Safe Side, Tim Be Told
- Getting By, Tim Be Told
- The Hymn (O What Mercy), Tim Be Told

- Daughters, John Mayer

- Before the Throne of God Above, Selah

- Come Home Running, Chris Tomlin

if your weak? what should you do to become strong?

"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Cor. 12:7-10)

Ask me anything

What are your biggest fears?

1) Loneliness. 2) Being mediocre, or being complacent with being mediocre.

Ask me anything