Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. I wonder about our friendship...if it'll last, or even if it's still there. I feel like you don't really care about our relationship, so part of me wants to just give up and move on. The other part of me cherishes all the times we've had and is grateful for all the times you've been there for me. Maybe I need you more than you need me. But I don't want to be your charity case either. And I also know that to give up on a friend wouldn't be what God wants me to do. Guess only time will tell what will happen to us.

2. Things have certainly changed between us since the time we first met. I still don't really know what happened, and while my mind constantly thinks about it, I don't want to be thinking about it anymore. But I am starting to see what you were saying, how maybe it is the timing, or maybe we just weren't what the other was looking for. Reflecting back on all the times we had, I do remember how sometimes I wished things were different; how our circumstances were different, or even how you would be different. But what's over is over now, so guess I'll just have to continue to rely on Him now to see where He brings us in our friendship and how He'll shape the rest of each of our lives.

3. I don't know how we ever became such good friends, as well as how we became sisters-in-Christ. But it's amazing how He works, and I'm so so grateful for you. You're definitely one of the people who I can see that we're growing separately but not apart from one another. Thank you for being there for me, for caring so genuinely. I only pray I can love and care for you like you do for me. By the way, I miss you so much right now. I hope you're enjoying Christmas with your family. And remember, don't ever let anyone put you down. They just don't see how amazing you are. <3

4. Also for you, I don't know how we ever became such good friends and brother-sister in Christ. It's been such a blessing to catch up with you when we're both back from college. I love how we can just sit there and talk for hours. I'm always so encouraged by our conversations; the work God's been doing in your life, especially when you're away at college, is amazing. You've grown so much spiritually. I'm excited to see how our lives will change, but how we'll probably still be meeting up at Starbucks, sitting down, sipping our espresso's, and chatting like things have never changed.

5. Thanks for being there for me, especially when I'm back in NYC. I consider NYC home but sometimes I don't feel at home. It's times like that when you come along and make me feel better.You've really been an awesome big brother in Christ. We still have yet to go to Alaska together so you can lick your iceberg, haha. As well as Australia so I can attend your wedding and hold a wombat. I'm kinda of kidding, but kind of not. :)

6. We don't talk anymore, but I know that you played a huge role in my life. You showed me what it meant to be a friend, what it meant to open my heart to someone, and then what it feels like to be abandoned. Not sure if we'll ever talk again in the future, but I still hope that we will someday.

7. This isn't really to one person, but to a collective of people. Thank you for the kindness and excitement you showed me. I'm glad I was able to experience such a warm, welcoming community, if even just for a short time. Definitely a bit sad that I don't have an excuse to come by anymore.

8. I wish you were home right now. I don't always enjoy our conversations and wish we had a better relationship, but of course I still love you. Just a thought I had today was, how boring it'd be if I was an only child. So yeah I'm definitely grateful for you in my life, and I pray ever night that I'll still see you in eternity. I don't know what happened in that relationship of yours, but I pray hard for it.

9. I love you. I sure hope you know. I've been trying to show it more. And I pray for you every night also.

10. I love you. And I am thankful for everything you do for me, even though I'm terrible at showing it. Praying for you every day and night.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I'm my own worst enemy.

2. It takes me a long time to trust someone.

3. I want to travel, but not by myself.

4. I'm introverted, but am shy and like to be social.

5. I'm an organization nerd.

6. I enjoy geeky jokes ^^;

7. I'm not very creative and wish I was more talented.

8. I value wisdom and knowledge.

9. I hate wasting time, but I need to learn that sometimes taking a break is not wasting time, especially at times when I feel so overwhelmed all I want to do is sleep.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Show that you're thinking of me.

2. Show that you won't abandon me.

3. Show that you know me.

4. Love me for my weird quirks and in spite of my flaws.

5. My three top love languages: quality time, works of service, and physical touch.

6. Show that you love your friends and your family.

7. Win my family's and friends' approval.

8. And last, but most important, show that you love God, and encourage me to love Him more.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. I think I think too much.

2. God, what the hell is the purpose of this?!

3. Who are my true friends?

4. Who and when?

5. Be patient; wait on Him.

6. First things first, God first. Everything else will fall into place.

7. Stop complaining.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

- I'm not sure there's anything I wish I'd never done. Everything I've done or that's happened to me occurred for a reason and has contributed to who I am today. The good and the bad.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

- See "Day One" from above.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1. When you can find out more about a person from their Facebook than you can about them in person. It really irks me when some people are so outgoing and social online, but then once you meet him/her in person, it's like they refuse to speak. WTH?!

2. People who like something simply because that's is what other people like. I feel like with these people it's impossible to tell who they truly are, what makes them unique? Or do you believe that your purpose in life is to be like everyone else? Because if that's the case, that's just boring. [Side note, I think subconsciously these people tick me off because I used to be one of them. Then I realized things I thought were "cool" simply because other kids liked them were in reality just dumb.]

3. This goes along with #2. People who pretend to be someone else just so they will be liked. Be true to yourself.

4. People who don't really think. I feel like people who don't spend time in reflection don't know what they want, don't know what's important to them, don't know the seriousness of some situations, etc.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1. Maturity. Unlike people who turn me off, these people know what they're passionate about, and they go for it. They don't care what the world thinks. They know their values, and they stick to them. They do the right thing, not the easy thing. They think before they act. They plan ahead. They seek guidance and yearn for wisdom. They're considerate of others, selfless. And they're rightfully humble. (Like C.S. Lewis said, they don't think less of themselves, they think of themselves less.)

2. Romance: flowers, sweet texts, stargazing, walks on the beach, hand holding, and the like ;)

3. Commitment - walk the talk. And don't promise more than you can give. And this is kind of related, that he wants a Christian family in the future.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. -.- <- praying

2. ???

Day Ten: One confession.

1. It's only by His Grace alone that I'm still alive today. His love and hope gives me purpose each day.