if you could ask for anything in this world, what would it be?

I'll answer this in increasing levels of seriousness. First, because I just watched "Dear John" Channing Tatum is someone who pops into my mind haha. Second, because I just watched a film based on a book by Nicholas Sparks, I want a guy who can be committed and knows that true love means commitment. Lastly, in all seriousness, I know what I want is unconditional love. But this is something I already have: agape love...God's love.

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have u showered yet?

Uh... >>;
Lols, just kidding! Yes I have haha =)

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Misery Loves Company

You know that one kid in class who always screws up the average, the outlier? That one kid who does well while everyone else bombs the test. Well out of the pre-med students, while there's always a few who are anomalies who can juggle everything and do well in everything, for the rest of us...life pretty much sucks.

So it's no wonder that when the pre-med students finally do crawl out of their rooms into the daylight (or moonlight) and can spare a single hour to do something other than study or go to class, that they use that hour to vent. Tonight the pre-health club held a fall pre-registration info session, their second meeting of the entire school year. Instead the "info session" turned into an all-out, everyone-venting discussion about how much pre-med breaks you.

There was a lot of discussion that occurred within that hour (some of it serious, not included below though) but here's just a sampling of what went on:

: "Erdman's a great place to live - it has a dining hall so you can just get food quick."

: "You actually have time to eat?!?"

: "Do you know there's a shower in Park Science?"

: "Uh...you mean the emergency showers in the hallway...?"

: "No, no. There's a shower downstairs in the physics wing. You can live there. People do that."

(Third girl interjects): "Yeah, I totally didn't leave that building during finals week last time."

(Fourth girl) : "Yeah, if you need a key to get in, just let me know."

: "Don't worry, everyone goes through these doubts and stress. Ahh, should I be pre-med? I don't think I'm cut out for this. But in the end you'll convince yourself you love medicine and you'll pull through. And by the time you're almost done you'll be all worn out. Then you have to go to med school because otherwise you put yourself through all that torture for nothing."

: "I was talking to a recent graduate and he told me to enjoy undergrad because once you get out into the real world life gets worse. And I thought, 'What?! It gets worse than this?!?' "

There was also a quick side discussion about how some of the (male) post-bac's were interested in raising money to help Haiti relief efforts. So they were thinking about auctioning themselves off but were worried because they didn't know whether or not anyone would buy them. We came to the conclusion that it wasn't a matter of whether or not anyone would bid on them, but rather that we were seriously concerned for their safety....

Anyways, kidding aside now, while tonight gave me an idea of what my life will be like if I decide to stay pre-med, I'm actually not turned off from it. But we'll see.... Still praying I get into SMDEP for this summer; I find out in 2 days! April 1!

One final thought I had related to being pre-med...my friends. From what I witnessed tonight, pre-med students seem to inevitably complain about their lives. Not that other people don't complain about their lives, but to a non-pre-med student, pre-med students may appear to be putting themselves through unnecessary suffering. Thus for non-pre-med students the complaining is going to get annoying. So if I decide to stay pre-med I apologize to my friends in advance. (Maybe these will be the times which separate my friends from the acquaintances.)

He never ceases to surprise me with His faithfulness.

Thank you for all those who asked how I was doing. I'm feeling better already.

Maybe it's because I'm going to a women's college so I haven't talked to many guys in general but modesty (concerning the way women dress) is not a topic that usually comes up even when I am talking to my brothers in Christ. So I actually found this modesty survey and its results to be really interesting. (And I was kind of encouraged by the number of brothers in Christ who signed the petition.)

The Modesty Survey is an exciting, anonymous discussion between Christian guys and girls who care about modesty. Hundreds of Christian girls contributed to the 148-question survey and over 1,600 Christian guys submitted 150,000+ answers, including 25,000 text responses, over a 20-day period in January 2007.

To Read in the Future:

- Every Young Woman's Battle, Shannon Ethridge and Stephen Arterburn

- For Women Only, Shaunti Feldhanh

- Lady in Waiting, Jackie Kendall

P.S. Yesterday family group did an interesting topical bible study on what on what defines a godly man, based on material from Lady in Waiting. I'll post up notes later.

Footprints in the Sand, Leona Lewis

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I’m going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid ooh
And just when I
Have thought I’ve lost my way

You give me strength to carry on
That’s when I heard you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

When I’m weary
Well I no you’ll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I’m always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I’ll carry you
When you need a friend
You’ll find my footprints in the sand

Today was such a busy day between church, service project, and trying to study for my midterm. While I was in the library studying my dad calls and I answer quietly saying that I'm in the library. Then he abruptly asks if I had thought about the timeshare stuff and lectures me on how I should be planning my summer vacation now before it's too late. Thanks Dad...just trying to study and do well in school, now I'm suppose to plan my vacation first? What happened? When did we switch roles? -_-;

What are you doing with your life?

Matthew 25:

The Parable of the Talents

¹⁴"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. ¹⁵To one he gave five talents^a]">[a] of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. ¹⁶The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. ¹⁷So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. ¹⁸But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.

¹⁹"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. ²⁰The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'

²¹"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

²²"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'

²³"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

²⁴"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. ²⁵So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'

²⁶"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? ²⁷Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

²⁸" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. ²⁹For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. ³⁰And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.'

The Final Judgment

³¹"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. ³²All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. ³³He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

³⁴"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. ³⁵For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

³⁷"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? ³⁸When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? ³⁹When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

⁴⁰"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

⁴¹"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. ⁴²For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, ⁴³I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'

⁴⁴"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'

⁴⁵"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'

⁴⁶"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

If it's true that the time we spend determines what's most important in our hearts (and it does), then what's most important in your life?

Not going to lie... my work, my future, my image, my goals... basically myself.

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Weather like this makes me really glad I'm at Bryn Mawr. Even though it's midterms week for me, it hasn't been a very stressful week. I'm not sure that's a good thing though; I've become very lax in terms of getting work and studying done. I tried to study for my Chinese midterm and ended up napping in the sunlight instead. My accountability group met outside today and ate dinner. That was really nice. Anyways, I really got to get down to studying. Aish, I have to stop thinking about summer and vacation/traveling....

Just updated my iPod Touch. I had forgotten it did more than simply play music.

By the way, check out this App: It's the ESV Bible (from Crossway) for the iPhone and iTouch (and you don't need internet to use it)

On Repeat: "Wedding Dress," TaeYang (with English subtitles) (and an English version by J. Reyez and Tommy C.)

Reblogged from my friend Symphony:

but I still feel like that baby cub in the picture. In complete awe — a dose of fear, but finding comfort in Him. [...] I look and realize (think of scene when Simba is lying in the grass & he “sees” his father in the skies) … He’s all around me. I don’t need to find him, but He is ALWAYS here right by my side. I don’t need to run. EVER.

What is one thing that encourages you in your spiritual walk that other people do or that you wish other people would do for you? (Challenge: Ask other people this and do what they answer.)

When people genuinely ask me what's going on in my life and what prayer requests I have because they would like to pray for me.

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Boy: God, i am fat... =(
Girl: good... thats more for me to love ;)

Hahaha, awww ^^

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True love: commitment; a choice/decision made daily to love someone

That's how this is possible:

(Reblogged from JBang)

Love comes from God; He set an example for us to follow on the cross. "We love because he first loved us." (1 John 4:19)

what are you craving right now?

I'm guessing you mean food-wise, but I'm homesick right now so I'm not very hungry. I'm "craving" NYC....

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Please pray for my father as he undergoes surgery tomorrow; that everything will go well and for a quick recovery.

I do not have the same eloquence as Dan so I'm just going to post my conversation with him. (I hope he doesn't mind.)

Dan: The fight is won or lost far away from witnesses - behind the lines, in the gym, and out there on the road, long before I dance under those lights.

do you know who said that?

me: nope

Dan: Cassius Clay

8:50 PM me: never would've guessed that lol

Dan: know who that is?

me: nope...

haha ^^;

Dan: he's better known as mohammad ali, the greatest boxer in the world

me: oh

8:51 PM Dan: if you replaced the word "fight" with "Christian life" and "dance under those lights" with "face temptation

you get

The Christian life is won or lost far away from witnesses - behind the lines, in the gym, out there on the road, long before i face trials

me: mm...

Dan: mohammad ali's great insight into boxing is so applicable to the Christian life

8:52 PM you don't grow as a Christian during trials and tribulations

you get TESTED

you grow as you study the Word every day and go to him in prayer

so that on fight nights, seasons of great testing, tempations, or a tragic loss

on those nights, you might triumph as a Christian

8:53 PM we don't understand that

because we look for easy answers and instant gratification

it's the same reason why people don't work out or eat vegetables

they don't instantly gratify

8:54 PM Dan: we don't read our Bibles every day because we don't notice a day to day difference in behavior, temperament, or mood

so we let ourselves get saggy, we grow those spiritual love handles

and then on fight nights, we get our asses knocked to the ground

8:55 PM or less metaphorically, at times when we find that we need to be spiritually strong and we require a certain level of spiritual maturity

we don't have it

and we lose out

we lose out on something that might've brought us so much joy

For Dan's actual post on this: http://thaumazw.blogspot.com/2010/03/fight-is-won-or-lost-far-away-from.html

Looking Ahead

My Spring Break's technically over.... Heading back to Philly and BMC on Sunday. Guess I'll save whatever I didn't get a chance to do over Spring Break and move them into my summer plans list.

After Spring Break...

- 4/1: TBT Concert @ USP

- 4/15: Hillsong United Concert

- 7 more weeks of classes until Summer Break

Summer Plans: Unknown

- Vacation? (Williamsburg, VA; Orlando, FL; Alaska)

- SMDEP?

I hate the way I treat my parents...why is it so hard...?

To My Sisters

When a man is truly a man he takes initiative. He knows he has enough friends and he doesn't want you simply as another friend.

He makes you feel so secure. You know that he won't abandon you. He's as determined to make you his as much as you want him to be yours. He's not thinking of anyone else. He cares about your feelings even more than you do. He's not afraid to commit. He doesn't just give up. He knows you're worth all the trouble. He believes he loves you more than anyone else can - and he does what he says.

You both feel comfortable enough to show how you truly are when you're most vulnerable, those times when you're unwound and all over the place. He loves the parts of you that even you hate.

Then you know that he is worthy of you.

(And until then, he's not a man.)

I Know I'm On Break Because...

- I'm not procrastinating: I don't feel the need to update this blog incessantly, read blogs to find out what's going on in other people's lives (I can just talk to them to find out), or plan a vacation

- My Google Calendar is blank

- I'm sleeping for long periods of time and doing nothing, and I feel no guilt (at the moment anyways)

Currently Listening To: Mountain of God, Third Day

Suppose you were a junior demon, and the devil assigned you to the task of tempting "Peony Yiu"and messing up her Christian life. What would you go for?

Her insecurities.

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Now that I think about it more, I think the more my insecurities surface, I would feel a greater need to turn to Christ.

This is something I've shared with some people about one of my experiences during my externship at CHOP. One of the patients I met was a fourteen year old girl, just starting her freshman year in high school. Those times are rough enough as it is. Anyways, jokes aside, I met her because she was a patient with a brain stem glioma (a type of cancer). Her life was far from normal with a history of eighteen surgeries in the short amount of time since she had been diagnosed. Her coordination was worsening as a result of the progression of her disease. She used a wheelchair to get around, and her left eye and the left side of her body were weakened.

With brain stem gliomas, there is not much medicine can do. We have yet to have found a cure for cancer. The brain stem is dangerous territory for neurosurgeons. And radiation and chemotherapy can only go so far, and both have adverse side effects.

Then the doctor asked the girl one question. I think the question was suppose to lead into a conversation about The Make A Wish Foundation where children with serious or terminal illnesses could have one wish granted. The doctor asked if she were to have one thing in the world, anything, what would she wish for? The girl replied "Friends. So that when things get harder I will have someone to fall back on."

The answer was heart-wrenching to hear. She did not ask for her disease to be healed, she did not ask for her normal life back. She knew things would get worse. And all she wanted was for people to be there for her when things do get worse.

There are a lot of things in life that we cannot grant, circumstances that are out of our control. However, the one thing we can do, an important thing we can do, is show compassion. To love one another as Jesus commanded us to do. Because life is not always easy. Times will get difficult. But none of that matters if we have someone to fall back on.

formspring.me

The propensity of the human heart is always to gravitate towards works. We don't understand grace, so we always try to DO stuff, thinking that it will make us good Christians, aka, thinking that it will save us. What are some things that you "DO" in your

The first thing that pops into my head is talking to people that I (really) do not like. Most of the time I cannot even take that step to pretend to like them, let alone love them. However, just because I don't talk to some people doesn't mean I don't like them; most of the time it's because I'm tired, shy, and an introvert. Trust me, if I don't like you, you can tell.

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formspring.me

Is it easy to believe in God (and in effect Jesus according to the Christian faith)?

No. It's never been easy. The Israelites failed to believe over and over again even when God freed them from Egypt and provided water, manna, and quail. And even when Jesus physically came down, people still doubted His divine authority. But once you been in the presence of Jesus...He's undeniable. That's what faith is. ("Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." -Hebrews 11:1)

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Talking to people about dog shelters and adopting dogs...I really want one now.... Another thing to add to my list of future plans. And maybe I'll consider working at an animal shelter this summer if I have time.

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Or maybe another rabbit.... By the way, there's a girl (maybe several) at BMC who keeps a rabbit in her dorm room. Hmm....

Whoa... I haven't checked my formspring.me in a while so to my surprise I just found 6 new questions. All of which are serious (and tough) theological questions. (I wonder who asked them...?) Anyways, it's going to take me a while to answer. For serious questions I like to give serious answers, hence I'll need time to actually think up complete responses. Also, because it's midterms week and I'm swamped with work ><;